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Matt Moore
Touch the Sky, They Say Print

Editor's Note: This story has been nominated for a Prix Aurora Award. If you enjoy the story, please read Matt's blog on how you can show your support. -DFM

Four steps up onto the observation platform and the sky is barely a foot above my head. Featureless, grey — a morning headache after a bad night’s sleep. Same as it looks from the street, forty-one floors down.

Up here, the wind is July-hot and attic-dry, switching directions, rippling our clothes. The group is a mix of business types on lunch and other assorted pilgrims. Like me. There’s a middle-aged guy in black jeans and a sleeveless Harley Davidson shirt. A teenager with hair spiked despite his school blazer and tie.

The last one up is a girl in her twenties with peroxide-blonde hair and a Ramones T-shirt. She doesn’t hesitate — fingertips stroke the sky. I see my own uncertainty mirrored in her expression. Once in a while, the stories go, someone collapses to the planks of the platform, sobbing.

Not her.

She lowers her hand and descends the wooden steps to the elevator, heavy boots clopping all the way. A pudgy man with crescents of sweat in the armpits of his suit presses his palm against the sky for an instant, then follows the blonde.

There’s six of us left, trying not to make it too obvious we’re all waiting to see who will go next. The Harley shirt turns and leans against the wooden railing. We’re at the highest point in the city; you can see for kilometres. See straight across to where the sky cuts through the CN Tower and the truncated columns we used to call skyscrapers. Maybe he’s just here for the view. I join him at the railing and look south. The lake’s calm today, reflecting the sky’s perpetual flat, grey light. I jam my hands in my pockets, fingering the folded-up rejection letters.

Far below, a car horn sounds, echoes, fades. The familiar quiet resumes. Since the sky fell, we’re all so polite. A quick toot of the horn used for caution, not a weapon, not a complaint. Years ago, waiting for one tutor or another in a music room lit pure-gold by the afternoon sun, I used to focus on the constant blare of rush hour, picking out horns not tuned to F major.

The kid with the spiky hair appears next to me, hands on the railing. He leans far over and, for a second, I think he’s going to jump. But he rocks back, curls his hands into fists and drums them on the railing. A complex beat in 3/4 time.

The man in the Harley shirt straightens up and shoots a fist against the sky. His knuckles crack and he grimaces. The stillness broken, two others reach up. A moment later they’re down the stairs.

The kid watches them go, then moves to the other side of the platform.

Wiping sweat from my forehead, I check the clock above the elevator doors. I’ve been here for eleven of the fifteen minutes my ticket allows.

The career woman in her expensive pantsuit and hairdo raises her hand, eyes shut. On contact, she shudders and lets out a small sob. But that’s it and she’s gone, high heels clicking down the steps.

Just me and the kid, now. I wonder what his story is. Maybe he wonders about mine. We probably both wonder if it’s true what they say. That when you touch the sky you accept it’s all real. That no one is climbing Everest or Logan again. That Calgary, Mexico City and Madrid are just gone. That whoever was in a plane or penthouse when the sky fell is never coming down. That no more planes are ever going up. No more sunsets or starry nights or full moons. No more night or day. No more summer-fall-winter-spring.

Touch the sky they say, the people who have, and you can let it all go. Let go of twenty years of daily piano and violin and clarinet practice. Let go of that desperate dream of making a living in the arts. Let go of any hope of attending one of the last remaining Fine Arts schools. Any hope of one day having your own orchestra.

Just touch it. Accept it. Accept there’s no longer a place for passion or grief or heartache or joy. The world is what it is. There’s no need anymore for creation. The sky fell and we survived the year of panic and wasted effort and now we know better. We know there’s nothing we can do or control and we know that nothing means a goddamn thing anymore.

I reach in my pockets for the letters, hold them out before me and open my fingers. The hot wind catches the pages, spreading them across the wooden deck, to the edge, over it.

The teenager watches them go and then yanks loose his tie. “Fuck this,” he tells no one. He balls up the tie and pitches it over the railing. Without once looking skyward, he stomps down the steps.

The staffer who escorted us up appears at the steps, her uniform as grey as the sky. “Time is up,” she announces flatly and motions for me to come down. I obey. She takes a place by the elevator doors, hands clasped before her, impassive. The others wait — calm, docile.

I begin to whistle low, a composition in of my own in E-flat. The kid nods along, tapping his legs with his palms. He follows the rhythm through its asymmetric 5/4 meter, his beats growing increasingly complex. I have a moment to admire his talent before I catch the glare of the man in the Harley shirt, the irritated shuffle of the business types, the frown of the peroxide blonde.

My instinct is to stop out of politeness. I look away and force myself to keep whistling.

The elevator pings, ready to take us back down to the street.

Matt Moore is a science fiction and horror writer with work in On Spec magazine, The Drabblecast podcast, the anthologies Tesseracts Thirteen, Tesseracts Fourteen and Night Terrors, and an eBook from Damnation Books. He is also the Marketing Director for ChiZine Publications, a small, independent publisher in Toronto.



# Hex 2010-11-01 21:58
rock and roll!
more, more, moore!
# dkunsken 2010-11-01 22:07
great story. eerie.
# Seoul Andrew 2010-11-01 23:29
Like King's the Dome . . . a year later, a 1000 pages shorter, and a cataclysm less. Lovely tale, it would be nice to read more about this.
# Chris 2010-11-10 13:38
Makes me think of Chicken Little for some reason.
# Matt Moore 2010-11-11 10:16
Thanks everyone for your comments. Glad you enjoyed the story.
# Sensawunda 2010-11-12 15:41
Interesting flash piece. Not so much a story as a moment. I like that it's from the point of view of an artist, and an artist that seems to need outside recognition for his art. Because only a small part of the world is left, this is something he'll never be able to achieve. There's a lot to like in this not-so-much-a-story.
# Paula Johanson 2010-11-17 16:42
A fine story, Matt - thanks so much for making it available.
# paul tremblay 2011-01-04 21:19
Cool story, Mr. Moore. And I love the added Ramones tee detail.
# Cheese 2011-01-04 22:38
I love the character descriptions. I can picture them vividly! In fact, I'm pretty sure I had a crush on the girl in heavy boots during most of my adolescence and early 20s.
# peter darbyshire 2011-02-21 15:23
Nice work.
# LG 2011-05-17 08:17
Great story. I like the musical references.
# Beverly Bambury 2011-12-01 23:33
This story's an amazing glimpse into a speculative future in that it is not only an intriguing idea, but that it packs a real emotional punch. I was truly moved by this, and I hope to see more from this author.
# Matt Moore 2011-12-03 13:16
Thanks, Beverly. I have another story here on AE: http://aescifi.ca/index.php/fiction/35-short-stories/714-ascension
# Joseph Aldred 2013-08-25 13:27
I'm intrigued. I want to know more--understand more. Thank you for sharing.

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